stripped
pinned by those dark eyes
your life sears up through the depths
my skin burns away

again
laughing at myself
tangled up with my own words
I trip over you!

pleasure
there they are again
deep waves crashing over me
voices and music

yes
here comes another
I slide under the green waves
drowning in the sound

................................................
so wanted
so needed
suspended
in a moment
endless
we are
here
right
now

it is...

preferred
they circle like sharks
trying to get in my head
I leave with myself

to be...

present
it has entered me
with a quiet so profound
vibrations of life

always...

distractions
surely there is more
yes, I have felt it, seen it
the world drops away
...........................................
I have reached a limit
there are too many
people in my life
I care too much,
cannot detach,
neglecting
the reality
of who
I am

take away
receive
give

I could hear it...

tell
this morning, gently
a green breeze slid through my door
stories of summer

I am learning...

acceptance
I stretch and I scream
my head bangs against your wall
should I even try?
......................................................
when do you stop trying,
to find someone who
understands you?
does it matter?
do you just
be who
you are
meant
to be?

yes, that is
the answer
breathe out
breathe in
and it will
fall into
place

see me
right now
clearly
that is
all I
am

night wanders...

presence
they follow me home,
the mountains, with quiet steps
ladders to the sky

stand
there, my patch of sky
a window over my head
with stars pouring in

continually...

amazed
and what can I write?
open my eyes, it's all there
layers of learning
.........................................
once again,
where life has led me
I am speechless
coincidence?
absolutely
not

to be seen...

clearly
smiling as I write
you can read between the lines
where all my words fall

always a....

traveler
with eyes far-gazing
I can walk in many worlds
and belong to none

the night...

embraced
pressed against my ears,
the quiet, like two cool hands
breath warm on my cheek

...

suspended
I find myself here
awake, the night like a room
lost within its walls

always an...

adventure
and where do I go?
to travel to new places
within or without?

with each person...

weightless
stop breathe release look
then touch me fill me leave me
I become lighter

taking it...

slow
soft light fills the air
quietly as I breath in
slide into the day

with back arched...

rise
lightly I sparkle
effervescent in the dark
waves upon deep waves

in retrospect...

hollow
last night was too much
drained by so many people
crushed against the walls
..............................................
walls of faces
depthless eyes
all so desperate

time to restore
rebalance
regroup
breathe

from tonight a...

visit
alcohol dulls words and
breeds shallow conversation
I need more to live
...............................................................................
I have tried, I visited, I talked, asked questions
I am done, I need more, it frustrates
I can't get what I need from this
maybe interesting to visit
definitely Not where
I want to stay
save me

take this as you will...
to be who I am
I need more...
you know
where to
find me

recently, my..

storm
watching the sky crack open
heat rises from me in waves
I am released
...................................................................
never assume...ask...question...wonder...

How else are you to know who you're really talking to?
Who is standing in front of you? Who are they?
When the right words unlock their eyes...that spark.
Can you see that spark when you find the person?
Fan the flame, hear the stories, feel the life.
I am constantly amazed.

the doors open...

wide
sliding and falling
I am pulled into your eyes
water the colour of tea

on the surface...

sun pennies
within solitude
my path flows like clear cool water
green waves flash

found time...

wander
thick sound of the heat
pours slowly over warm skin
two dark pools open

a walk
swallow the miles
step out on the horizon
and stretch to the sky
.....................................

I need to step out to stir up words...
inside, they scrape against the ceiling
and gather in dark corners
the air becomes too thick
short shallow breaths
blue windows close
I need the sky
an open door
far gazing
outward
inward
life

it is...

June
eyes close in the sun
I am craving the water
draw me down slowly

to be...

unchained
I am learning how
to be larger than my life
limits disappear

a...

full night
what words can define?
who we are in others eyes
full moon in sake

noted...

yield
the gates have opened
to let in the rushing tide
and I fill the sky

at last
purple cuts clear blue
briefly, before mountains melt
twilight frees colour

to stop...

hush
I had forgotten
the noise of living quickly drowns
soft velvet whispers

my own...

music
no, make no mistake
in a room full of quiet
I dance for myself
.............................................

that quiet is everywhere I go
whoever I'm with, whatever I'm doing
it slides my eyes closed and my mind open
I can hear it, I can feel it...so I dance
and watching eyes fade away

................................................

crowd
the wave starts again
voices rising and falling
smooth currents of words

a thin...

cord
faster than these words
I run ahead of myself
ground me, hold me down

not out of...

range
I become lighter
with each person that finds me
effervescent joy
........................................................
more to come on this train of thought
until I get it right

for the moment...

anchor?
I have lost the ground
to drift in a fog of words
untethered ache

slow breath...

ease
a gentle morning
sunlight slowly seducing
whisper me awake

life flow...

rojo
a day leaves the sky
and scrapes across the mountains
they bleed at my feet
...............................................................
I was watching a sunset turn to twilight
the dwindling light picked out the rocks red veins
and the mountains glowed

out my door...

sear
stars slip through the night
burning trails in the darkness
like blood through my veins

all sides...

disappear
in roiling crowds
I slide into still quiet
to contradictions
...............................
shoulder-to-shoulder, inhale to exhale crush
life sounds and words all around me
to the desert quiet pause
slow deep long breaths
from the ground
beneath me

from the weekend...

pulse
needed taste of life
sound vibrating through my skin
to shake myself free
.....................................................

becoming electrically charged
with every person I meet
crackling, expanding
flashing with light
reaching places
I never knew
existed,
yes...

such is life...

mutual
like a magnet pulls
taut, vibrating resistance
your eyes a slow dance

endlessly...

expanding
like a storm building
growing larger every day
the sky filled deeply

shaking my head...

moved
all with a purpose
people that fill out my life
I am amazed

summary...

sleepless
awake in the sun
air vibrating on my skin
melt into the day

eyes
yes, I remember
pouring slowly over me
words like warm honey

......................................

still so much to say
what am I creating here?

chance meeting...

yes
I see inside you
the calm within the chaos
concentrated life

tonight...

blood
quiet enters me
until stars run through my veins
the moon on my tongue

scattered images...

to see
the life in those eyes!
my blue windows thrown open
breathe in to breathe out

Thursday...

opened
brought into my world
an unexpected kindness
quickly breaks my heart

for a moment...

silence
to whisper, hold me
deeply in quiet places
music on my skin

not...

chance
I ask...Who are you?
those that join me in my walk
many threads entwined

through a text...

quote
words handed to me
are heard deeply whispering
quiet as a gift

sometimes...

restraint
they hold themselves back
my curious, searching, words
stretching and straining

recently...

away
to practice patience
suppressing thought with a breath
the moment endless

a need to share...

Something different. I might come up with a haiku, I might not.
A couple of people I have met in the last week...
...a student/artist continuing on the next stage in his life trying to make sense of life and love, so excited to connect and share his love of art with someone...he made me laugh, got so caught up in the conversation he called me 'dude' and instantly apologized...I'm 20 years older than him!...I wish him luck...
...a man older than the student who after losing his fiancee 10 years ago in a plane crash went on a 10 year bender...eight months ago met a woman and is is so madly in love he was just bursting to tell someone about her...what she likes...how she looks...he is awed by his good fortune...I didn't mind listening at all it was a joy talking to someone so open...
The people I meet are a part of me. it is humbling to think I might be a part of them.

yep, one was waiting to come out after all...

extending
I spread my arms, to
wrap myself around the sky
living inside-out

Thursday morning...

slip
lost in a meeting
my thoughts fly out through the cracks
a slice of blue sky

morning...

reverb
woke up with a word
there at the edge of my lips
an echo, "profound"

Sunday...

fringe
the air is brilliant
vision flies faster than thought
boundaries broken

slow and...

easy
to resonate life
as empty spaces are filled
leaving room for you
......................................

...but not waiting for you...

rebound...

slightest
a surface like glass
one touch and the waves begin
felt throughout my life

to go...

beyond
slipping through the cracks
I am on the other side
with a slow wild dance

to have...

peace
you are part of me
always as I go forward
every breath, change

this...and that...

spider
words again tangled
in a web of emotion
I am devoured

scattered
the smell of rain sharp
from mountains wearing black clouds
trees glow from within

clearing...

air
taking a deep breath
like something long forgotten
thoughts flow into words

pools
blue winter shadows
whisper deeply to the sun
twilight lies sleeping

greys
the fog slowly clears
flashes of colour find me
calling each by name

and I've...

reached
I breathe deep the stars
to expand and fill the sky
a slow spreading smile

(whispered word..."enough")

addition...

to hurt
I will not regret
any moment, it becomes
part of who I am

.............................

as it should be,
life's too short for regret
but long enough to learn

not wanted...

just needed
sharp deep growing pains
layers of my skin removed
softly risen sun

and now...

true
the pain of knowing
is honest, sharp and real
yet the love remains

puzzle pieces...

worn path
quietly I fall
deep beneath my blue waves
words evaporate

and there, always there
stars and silver threads entwine
keep me to this earth


space
opening my eyes
I release you from my shell
not to be contained


notes
dancing to my ears
water over desert stones
quietly laughing

through the twilight...

encounter
over the mountains
a full moon swollen with light
rises to meet me

finally, some words...

there
close your eyes, listen
the air is alive with words
endless and silent

linger
I take a deep breath
the air sparkles in my mouth
tasting your smile

out of the abyss...

a piece
the blue, cold, large, clear
swallowing sadness and fear
my indigo soul

joy
like the moon rising
certain, but wondrous still
my eyes unveiled

on meteors and souls...

dark matter
expanding to fill
every moment before me
I become endless

vivid...

season
the sunlight is sharp
its clear gold edge cuts through me
scattered burning stars

landing
the air is strange
on this new alien world
cold, full, and empty

weave...

inhale
air thick with felt words
the space between us simmers
a world of its own

desert
the quiet enters
slowly sliding up my skin
to fill lost places

news
stopped by a word
when a child faces life
the burden is ours

......................................................
How much can we take?
More than I thought it seems.
It rolls over us in unseen waves.
And we wonder why we can't catch our breath?
Blindly smiling into the deep green water.
We stretch to catch the sun in our teeth.
to slide like honey over our tongues.
Sweet, burning, full of life
the other side of pain

also...

changed
quietly scheming
sunlight enters my grey room
and I remember...

to be...

complete
turn and come to me
walk together down this path
leaving fear to want

too...

spill
a slow spreading pool
see my blood, my words, released
to be transparent

please stand by...

patience
entering the void
I come out the other side
and you are with me

sorting it out...

My Mom passed away on October 25th. I wrote this in Connecticut the first time I was alone in the house with so much of her around me.

embrace
memories surround
they clamor for attention
I touch each gently

................................

It comes in waves, there is no stopping them. I just hold on.

misplaced...

align
found in the desert
flowing down from the mountains
the calm I had lost

almost...

contained
images explode
to wrap around my body
barely held in place

tenuous...

hush
trying to focus
I fall deep into myself
and fade with the light

loudly silent...

quiet
words I want to say
still my throat and fill my mouth
burning through my lips

wire
I walk the tightrope
half-way between you and I
holding out my hand

nautilus
echoing softly
it spirals through my chambers
deep inside my shell
...........................................
Many haiku on my inner wanderings. Soon they will be more evenly mixed with words from my physical wanderings.

now...

elements
refusing to close
my eyes, wide open windows
I fill up with life

filling the spaces...

These are from various times and places. All tapped into my phone from parking lots, bars, lobbies...whenever/wherever I had a few minutes and was inspired.
(Thanks Paula and Daniel for giving me the place to finish them.)

notes
quiet energy
the air vibrates with colour
sound frays the darkness

submerged
they swirl around me
voices like water, I drown
slowly drifting light

wall
nothing left but I
fixed in a wall of sound
removed from the world

vital
so easy the known
so hard to look beyond it
my sky reflected

crowd
faces on all sides
their lives forming waves of words
crashing over me
.................................
An exercise in concentration while waiting for my car...

creation
words flow like water
filling the space between us
filtered blue sunlight

unseen
I sit motionless
invisibly vibrating
I slip through the air

drift
gently the day flows
I skim the surface like foam
to go where it leads

on-going...

filled
silent words spoken
pulled slowly from deep places
they come in soft waves

rolling and building
I swell to the horizon
to burn with the sun

still here...

merge
I let go and fall
slowly melting into you
the world fades away

afternoon walk...

aware
the air thick with heat
I walk to the sun's white heart
warm blood on my skin

to go...

softly
walking between words
to feel the quiet of truth
I hear your heart sing

train of thought...

all
how many am I?
refusing to become less
glimpses and facets

parts of a...

whole
eyes open slowly
I emerge from dark places
light pours from my skin

.....................................

overwhelmed sometimes lately
it comes in cold towering waves
though I know myself too well
to sink beneath them

I feel fiercely

touch...

why?
awoke, with worry
heart pounding, wide eyes staring
your name on my lips
...........................................
from a dead sleep, now wide awake
anxious, and...here
writing at 2 am
trying to send
my thoughts
to you

soft...

break
I can't explain it
the chains feel tight today
I can barely breathe
.............................

there isn't enough of me

nothing more...

I wrote this a couple of years ago for a friend
it is relevant again tonight

all I can do
raw pain of a friend
asking why with open eyes
helpless...I listen

no choice...

snapshot
tonight, words like stars
spread across my dark velvet
read between the shine
......................................
it is what is
sometimes the words
fall into softly into place
whether they work or not
but they all say something
parts of myself laid out
I'm still not really sure
why I put them here

this too, always

intrinsic
Trust. What can I say?
as natural as breathing
it is who I am

always...

after
the words then find me
through the black lens of the night
all I want to say

today...

safety
feeling cut adrift
I crash over deep green waves
your voice an anchor

always there...

connections
golden threads reaching
I touch souls clear in my eyes
with skin clear as glass

............................................

a huge concept to try and put into words
I will keep trying
until the words
fall together
seamless
endless
one

Something different...

These are from various times at the beginning of this journey.
Interesting to revisit them.

Time to start (Oct. 11 2008)

I am starting this blog to get some of my haiku written down, and out of my head. Clear up a little space up there.

Around a clear light,
dreaming in deep indigo
there you will find me
......................................
the wait
elusive and still
my words hide in quiet places
as I find my way

scattered impressions
a waiting time
while thoughts/words
mix and move
beneath the surface
I am not able to...
even now
so close, yet
out of reach
they dance
in and out of shadow
and brush against my face
......................................
edge
quietly I look
there, at the edge of myself
a universe waits
....................................
this is one of my favorites...

Rising
Trying to see,
I am still
yet
effervescent
Rising
to meet
you.
...............................
this one too...

skin
stepping into night
air like water on my skin
i talk to the stars

(and they answer)

as breathing...

natural
wherever I go
thoughts of you swirl around me
air against my skin

a past glimpse...

running late
rushing up to me
the sunlight clings to your eyes
I breathe in your smile