sorting it out...

My Mom passed away on October 25th. I wrote this in Connecticut the first time I was alone in the house with so much of her around me.

embrace
memories surround
they clamor for attention
I touch each gently

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It comes in waves, there is no stopping them. I just hold on.

misplaced...

align
found in the desert
flowing down from the mountains
the calm I had lost

almost...

contained
images explode
to wrap around my body
barely held in place

tenuous...

hush
trying to focus
I fall deep into myself
and fade with the light

loudly silent...

quiet
words I want to say
still my throat and fill my mouth
burning through my lips

wire
I walk the tightrope
half-way between you and I
holding out my hand

nautilus
echoing softly
it spirals through my chambers
deep inside my shell
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Many haiku on my inner wanderings. Soon they will be more evenly mixed with words from my physical wanderings.

now...

elements
refusing to close
my eyes, wide open windows
I fill up with life

filling the spaces...

These are from various times and places. All tapped into my phone from parking lots, bars, lobbies...whenever/wherever I had a few minutes and was inspired.
(Thanks Paula and Daniel for giving me the place to finish them.)

notes
quiet energy
the air vibrates with colour
sound frays the darkness

submerged
they swirl around me
voices like water, I drown
slowly drifting light

wall
nothing left but I
fixed in a wall of sound
removed from the world

vital
so easy the known
so hard to look beyond it
my sky reflected

crowd
faces on all sides
their lives forming waves of words
crashing over me
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An exercise in concentration while waiting for my car...

creation
words flow like water
filling the space between us
filtered blue sunlight

unseen
I sit motionless
invisibly vibrating
I slip through the air

drift
gently the day flows
I skim the surface like foam
to go where it leads

on-going...

filled
silent words spoken
pulled slowly from deep places
they come in soft waves

rolling and building
I swell to the horizon
to burn with the sun

still here...

merge
I let go and fall
slowly melting into you
the world fades away

afternoon walk...

aware
the air thick with heat
I walk to the sun's white heart
warm blood on my skin

to go...

softly
walking between words
to feel the quiet of truth
I hear your heart sing

train of thought...

all
how many am I?
refusing to become less
glimpses and facets

parts of a...

whole
eyes open slowly
I emerge from dark places
light pours from my skin

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overwhelmed sometimes lately
it comes in cold towering waves
though I know myself too well
to sink beneath them

I feel fiercely

touch...

why?
awoke, with worry
heart pounding, wide eyes staring
your name on my lips
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from a dead sleep, now wide awake
anxious, and...here
writing at 2 am
trying to send
my thoughts
to you

soft...

break
I can't explain it
the chains feel tight today
I can barely breathe
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there isn't enough of me

nothing more...

I wrote this a couple of years ago for a friend
it is relevant again tonight

all I can do
raw pain of a friend
asking why with open eyes
helpless...I listen

no choice...

snapshot
tonight, words like stars
spread across my dark velvet
read between the shine
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it is what is
sometimes the words
fall into softly into place
whether they work or not
but they all say something
parts of myself laid out
I'm still not really sure
why I put them here

this too, always

intrinsic
Trust. What can I say?
as natural as breathing
it is who I am

always...

after
the words then find me
through the black lens of the night
all I want to say

today...

safety
feeling cut adrift
I crash over deep green waves
your voice an anchor