bury me deeply
beneath the earth's crimson bones
where the sun rises

light coalescing
dreams and quiet ecstasy
grow into the night

quietly waiting
on each breath life ascends
return to starlight

One year ago tonight, I sat in a hospital room with my Dad as he fought the inevitable.
It was a long night. I was helpless in it's immensity.
The following morning I stood up and turned from the bed to talk to my brother on the phone.
As soon as I did...my father died.
I suppose life, and death, can be funny that way.
But his love carried me home.

brief shining moments
painful clarity of light
cut into the day

hope settles lightly
as moonlight on dark branches
quiet gratitude

memories gather
sea foam stretched across the sand
twilight wide-open

 

invited to swim
lives shine and flow around me
the honor is mine


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haiku eludes me tonight,
perhaps trying too hard to express
that simple gratitude from just being human

may my mirror be cleared of my own reflection
reflecting the depth of the beauty around me
allowed to see into those shining pools
and speechless with the honor

with soft pink laughter
they dance along dark branches
playing in the sun

lost in the colours
as the day enters my room
minutes suspended

the day's golden threads
wrap around me like a gift
walk into the sun

dance close to the edge
and tilt headlong into life
then words become wings

facing Orion
stars fall gently on my skin
life effervescent

while I find my way
steps become light on this path
surrounded by love

with acceptance, grace
my bones the blue-green water
smoothing out the stones

inspired to write
but the words skitter away
in my hands, moonlight

floating in the air
golden minutes of the day
swirl and fall gently

lost in the colour
thousands of heartbeats later
I take a slow breath

shuttered blue windows
open in the winter sky
a flash of red wings

shadows dance with light
in stories told through smiles
death is not quiet

up through the fathoms
spinning galaxies resound
music on my skin

they brush my eyelids
and the swirling years, they dance
warm golden sunlight

I can feel the words
embedded in the shadows
syllables of light

I blinked in the sun
and then tripped over the day
laying at my feet

underneath the waves
suspended in the quiet
blue filtered sunlight

shining and dancing
my daughter's beautiful soul
sunlight through the leaves

sharp as clear sunlight
words and life reach a balance
turning with the leaves

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gently, these bright lives
enter my doors and windows
colours beyond thought

words dropped one by one
until nothing left but sound
thoughts run like water

rise and fill the sky
on waves the colour of thought
my heart for a sail

words shine or destroy
in the landscape of the heart
use them carefully

clear as sharp starlight
I see your heart in your eyes
shadows on the floor

such a mad jumble!
words dance, dust motes in sunlight
spinning and flashing


my heart is learning
the music of your story
layers of deep sound

a familiar light
looks back at me through dark eyes
with doors wide open


the slow explosions
that come from intense stillness
warm quivering breath

my words are mountains
built layer upon layer
whispers to the stars

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I seem to have much to say lately
but don't know where to begin.
So what is this need I feel to
explain myself or to find
where I stand amidst
the lives, the wonder
that is around me?
All is connected,
I have no doubt, 
and I am in
wonder
always.

day slowly closes
thoughts lingering with the light
an uncertain sky



eyes meet, then entwined
no ending, or beginning
with warm breath between

growing, expanding
I have been turned inside-out
my heart in the stars

breathing in the words
I become still, then I smile
with their pleasant weight

casual kindness
tossed to me with a smile
cuts deeper than words

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this sounds odd only because I lack the words to describe
the humanity...goodness...compassion...nobility...
so many lives sharing the same space
it can totally destroy me
the largeness of it all

face the horizon
with purple clouds in your hair
heart, like wings, outstretched

facing the mountains
the welcome weight of silence
pressed into the ground

following the sun
I run straight into the sky
twilight at my feet

I have been asleep
learning from dreams and whispers
depth in the quiet

repeating numbers
it was a day filled with signs
orange yellow wings

drifting into sleep
the desert becomes so still
brightly coloured dreams

measured in sunlight
quiet steps across the floor
lives swirl and sparkle

strings vibrate with night
the piercing sound of starlight
sing deeply to me

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Glass: Violin Concerto - Mvt. 2  Takuo Yuasa: Ulster Orchestra

water over sand
filled with gold shadows and light
thoughts ripple and flow

and tonight, haiku
feels like way too many words
to capture this day

sacred datura
clear moons that glow in the night
souls of the desert

it flows through the pen
a letter to my brother
love embeds paper

...................................
if he can only hear
he is not alone

with clear glass breaking
lives pass by without a thought
to feel in a glance

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I will say again,
I am amazed and humbled
by the people in my life
they give so much,
without thought

always stilled
and captured
I try to be
worthy

scattered as my thoughts
stars across the velvet sky
burning as they fall

gather me closer
warm lips whispering on skin
we ride the night waves

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impressions and memories

creating our own reality

everything is now
to experience

stop, be still
and listen

through my open door
walls dissolving with the sound
rain meditation

I sat down to write
but could not keep myself still
vibrating with life

it is not for me,
life in an echo chamber
with only my voice

under a pine tree
the air sits warm and heavy
hiding from the sun

fall to sleep deeply
melt down through my warm layers
spread into the night

slowly close your eyes
rest inside this quiet place
white sun, blue shadows

how to put to words
all the lives I brush against
overwhelming need

in the deep hours
there is nowhere left to hide
hold me, keep me in

................................................

yes, truly, we think too much
rather than go with need

our wants are simple
answers, sublime
if only we listen
quiet the noise
end the doubt

we are not
meant to 
be alone 

be still
open
your
eyes

curling twisting vines
hearts green reaches towards the sky
people in my life


this one from a couple of years ago came to mind today...

hits like a hammer
memories riding on air
the scent of a thought

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as I live more in the moment
words turn into the air I breathe
becoming harder to separate 
from thoughts or feelings
left without boundaries
filling, dissipating
I am endless
limitless
found

stop, close your eyes, and
step off the edge of the day
to be unfettered

softly breathing blues
quietly the day's music
builds deep around me

awake between dreams
night streches long before me
the doors open wide

close your eyes and see
one by one the stars blink out
a bright clear darkness

with branches dancing
it smiles with bright green flashes
and laughs with the sky

stretched out in the heat
my body is liquid thought
time flows thick and slow

the day falls burning
deep into purple twilight
whispers on my skin

simmering clearly
there, just beneath the surface
words wait patiently

near the horizon
falling deep into the sky
yes, here be dragons

my body tests me
so very tired tonight
disappear within

a deep quiet calm
clear water bright as sunlight
settles in my heart

I hold my breath, the
moment stretched, a golden light
illuminated

sun kiss on my cheek
and those crazy places fill
a rising stillness

a brown smell, wet leaves
the dark scent of expanding
possibilities

eyes closed and drifting
sunlight falling through water
silence suspended

beauty...I want to
breathe this moment forever
the sky in my hands

blue sky meets the earth
follow that long endless edge
wide as my smile

dancing over me
sunlight plays with grey shadows
filled with a white light

to hold myself back
or be completely open
truth in compassion


cold edge of the night
purple falling into black
words cut out of me



as I closed the door
I left you out in the night
listen to the stars

I will not fight it
my heart will love where wanted
and sometimes where not

and rising above
I leave my body behind
no ties left to bind

the sky is falling
stars are sliding off my skin
puddles on the ground


as I learn to stay
quiet with a hopeful heart
embracing silence

cold, rainy, sharp, grey
remembering my deep roots
and power returns

all I can hope for
is for someone to see truth
stripped...silent...open

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sometimes events are out of our control
they move forward with a life of their own
while we are the unaware participants, catalysts

breath
learn
love
live

heal me with your skin
warm smooth life under my tongue
pain leaves with a breath

tired past all words
I surrender to the sound
deep in indigo

with eyes wide open
hush the words, stop the chatter
listen inside-out

with eyes clear as glass
you held your doors wide open
I found myself home

words rise with our breath
warm thought swirls, trails through the night
constellations form

looking up at you
I fall through the open doors
so easily lost

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there is no telling when this will happen
without warning and no place to hide
sliced open...exposed...released
finally to become weightless
climbing the velvet night
a clear searing flame
soars deeply over
endless waves
vulnerable
powerful
crashing
falling
rising
you
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I explore through words. Who I am, what I am learning..experiencing.
This is only my view, and all it ever can be. A small slice at best.
It is not easy to be so exposed, but...necessary.

no words for the joy
no place I would rather be
right here...right now...breathe

taking  a deep breath
I feel life against my skin
just stop and live it

we are connected
I am there in your deep pain
my friend, my brother
.
.
.
I love you

lost in the moment
sinuous exploration
boundaries vanish
.
.
.
between desires
one ends the other begins
seamless perfection

stretching my limits
words are out of reach tonight
hold me, keep me in

shining from dark eyes
above that gentle smile
clear light of your soul

unnerving to see
so much, so clearly, so fast
standing on the edge

galaxies spin, as
night unravels around me
eyes wide, doors open

this twilight tonight
drawn out scream of light leaving
painful in beauty

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tried again
hard feeling to put in words
so large

yes, it's time to go
just before the tidal wave
voices find their edge
:
:
:
with a slow smile
I leave the words where they fall
...

with soft whispered words
brush the night over my eyes
deep indigo dreams

wrap around me now
feel the moon fill deep the night
straight into morning