gathering myself
small pieces thought lost, found in
unlikely places

sifting through the night
sparks of thought through my fingers
whispers on the floor

knowing no other
I can only return here
lost inside myself

..........................................................
but I choose to be lost sometimes

whether it's in myself, out past the horizon,  or deep in dark eyes

I find so much when I'm lost, and then...see the world differently

there is a beauty in the unknown

loosen with the heat
now melt into me slowly
the taste of salt warm

okay, here we go...

caution, I am wordy tonight

I have no desire to hide the years I've lived
if it puts me in a different place 

than the people around me
(not a better place, 

or a clearer place,
just different)

so be it
I will ask questions

I will wonder and explore
I am looking for honest answers
they will not hurt or stop me
but might change me
and make me better

in different phases of life,
we ask different questions

I cannot ignore mine
but maybe I need to
temper my search
take a breath

be still

..................................................................
I wrote tonight
built-up impressions
and experiences

from recent days

(what are Sunday nights for?)
each happened
and was felt

do not think

you know me
unless you ask
...............................................................

trapped by the music
it held me without remorse
stripped me to my bones

holding back the miles
words of love become bridges
eyes close, you are there

trying not to look
too much hope in those dark eyes
I am not the one

there is even more
go to the edge of the sky
stop there and listen

beauty in a glance
chance a look or slow smile
the earth shattering

why is it so hard
to speak with an open mind?
we assume too much

the people I know
twisting tendrils of clear light
circling the globe

hush now, be quiet
stop the chatter with a thought
softly to the floor

I am not enough
there is too much need out there
stretched transparent





now still your mind, and
stop...hold me...gather me up
pieces make the whole

a wonderful thing
water flows in the desert
dreams in a mirage

left without fear, and
stripped of all expectations
we vibrate through air

I am but pale foam
reflecting on the surface
dark ocean of night
.
.
.
looking up to see
life's slow celestial dance
constellations form
.
.
.
and I fall deeper
cool water slides over warm skin
stars rise from my wake

I cannot hold back
sparks dance up and down my spine
words evaporate

behind my eyelids
night settles in cool dark waves
stars shine in the depths

slide over my tongue
a gaze that tastes like honey
spilling on my skin

on being myself...
I am not responsible
for your point of view

....................................................................................
there is much thought and searching behind this one
an ongoing realization...an ongoing acceptance
hard to write for the very reason it was written

a definite 'word' theme lately it seems
what is said and what is left unsaid
when they seem so unnecessary
which is more often than not
...how they look even
I am fascinated
by all of this
question

observe
explore
search
listen
share
trust

fumbling for words
my mind as clear as water!
I wait for the waves

settling slowly
the air thick with muffled heat
life in slow motion

I fell in your eyes
as I was looking for words
you softly smiled

oh, what it could be
I slowly burn with restraint
and the moments pass


filling still places
twilight settles between us
words follow the sun

.............................................
there is a beauty in stillness
and in the unattainable
to recognize life
while sharing
your soul
without
words

quiet, so quiet
the sound of life expanding
clarity in pain
............................................
just growing pains
and I welcome it, for
there is no passion without pain
passion for life, people, music, art
seeing, accepting, learning
this makes me
who I am

I am

I am

walking in the night
all boundaries disappear
thoughts are limitless




stretching and reaching
so small, yet so infinite!
my feet leave the groud

whispering softly
dreams melt into cool shadows
the sun on my tongue

only air between
just enough for the silence
voices and my skin

I wait for release
to find rest in cool shadows
sifting through sunlight
............................................
the sun and blue sky
there is no escape from it
not surprising here in the desert
though lately, it seems, I have been
frozen by sunlight

a sharp blue sky and
red sunlight through my eyelids
quiet afternoon

on tips of branches
the last minutes of the day
caught in gold sunlight

the world gets smaller
our lives woven together
with each written word
.......................................................................

Not ready to stop writing here yet obviously.
And I am tempted to explain a little the last post...
but I will not try, except to say
the blog is cumulative.
Exploration.

to be so quiet

the sound of light dissolving
echos into night

.............................................
I am contemplating stopping this blog
I would continue to write...just not here
I would miss coming to this place
but look...see?...right there...
at the very beginning
of those first lines
that I just typed,
a closing door
to one room
it echos
empty
"I"

that door is not meant to be closed
so maybe it's time to step back
and slowly close my eyes
and let that crazy light
spin madly off
the walls

thought to words...my bones
so they will not be found here
swallowed by the void

stop for a moment
rest deep in that hidden place
let me surround you

it pours like warm rain
oblivion and smiles
looking from outside

deep inside...a calm
crazy...endless...inside-out
stars shine through my skin

indigo so clear
falling deep behind my eyes
endless resonance

a relentless wind
tenuous reality
blows in through the door

hold me and stop me
gather the stars with your teeth
galaxies entwined

no, not a haiku
just trying to be aware
of every minute...........
............................................

every movement is a prayer
every breath a reason
joy is quiet in the air
flowing with the seasons

leave me to my thoughts
nothing left to give tonight
nothing left to write

falling so quickly
our discarded impressions
tangled on the floor

..........................................
an awareness
a snapshot
moment
glimpse
breath
blink
beat
be

from a few nights ago
been very unsettled lately
............................................

last night, in my arms
darkness whispered me to sleep
weave my breath with dreams

so slowly I breathe
leaving the sky like the sun
beauty in the void

waiting in the centre
a vast and endless wander
look! no boundaries!

yes, I know this place
as familiar as your skin
quietly I fall
.................................................
putting my words here
seems like a selfish gesture
indulging too much
to what end?

push it down through me
fill the centre of the earth
a white light remains

hiding in plain sight
yes...but no-one is looking!
and I have to laugh

flat against the wall
voices slide along my skin
I slowly dissolve
..........................................
the moon was incredibly beautiful tonight.
hanging above the horizon
a bowl holding the night.

winter sun beckons
it laughs between the shadows
calling out my name

I move through water
yesterday spins in my wake
blue sunlight pierces

every person is
in my life for a reason
learning and breathing

you, with a smile
that crashes into the sky
and eyes filled with stars

holding a soft breath
the day waits for me to wake
and the air vibrates

still, they wait for me
words sliding over my tongue
I try to catch up
..............................................
okay, life is so fucking amazing
if we stop and pay attention
we touch so many people
with our words, actions
old news, I know
but really, why
are we here?
see me now
I am here
I see...
you.

pressed against my ear
warm lips quietly whisper
words swirling in air

push me down to sleep
and hold me under water
lungs filled with the night

with voices laughing
small bright flashes of sunlight
sing about their day


shine inside and out
people no different than light
we choose to be seen
................................................................
still not sure why I put these up here
hiding in plain sight

slide between my lips
the words they try to escape
shimmering past me

fall and come to me
melt slowly in the shadows
warm salt on my tongue

all right...
something different...
bar haiku from two sources!
...................................................
me...

bar haiku again
these lives so hot against me
beauty in motion

Lynn...

sushi bar pencil
bar art work leans close to me
lean into me now
........................................
yes...we had a good time

I hold on...hold on
tight enough to let it go
resist...surrender

a storm of voices
these lives pressed hot against me
flowing off my skin
.......................................................
what is this need
to be in a crowd of people
voices loud...bodies touching
not knowing a soul
not trying to meet anyone
or start a conversation...
just letting it all roll around you...
quiet...open...still...
why does this feel so satisfying sometimes?

with arms wide open
a brilliance of lives pour in
electric white light

with a slow glance, eyes
lock, and spinning galaxies
burn across my skin
..........................................
oh there is so much more
words effervescent
hard to hold
to grasp
share
feel

not letting words through
they wait, suspended and clear
momentum unchecked

.................................................
I was going to try and explain this a little
but sometimes explanations work better in actual conversation
there is too much right now to try and force it into three lines
yet...I do like to try, it strips everything down to its essence
the bones and breath of what I see and experience
reading more true than pages of words.
I feel compelled to do this
using few words like keys
one by one unlocking
the world and
myself

words between moonlight
clear as the breath you just took
shine into the void
....................................................................
I will not try to describe this right now, but...
Do I shine for myself?
Or others?
Null?
Yes.

the ocean of sky
can pull me up and under
drowning in a thought

I have become still
words burn slowly through my veins
ride a shooting star
............................................................
the words are few lately
they have become part of me
so much harder to separate
from breath and blood
spilling on the page
...is it necessary?

hits like a hammer
memories riding on air
the scent of a thought

beauty is your smile
as it flows straight from your eyes
the sun in my throat
.....................................................
daydreams...as clear as this breath...

today I can fly
the air sharp against my face
eyes locked on the sun
.............................................
no bar haiku for the moment
as entertaining
and honest
as they are

Why is the quiet you find
surrounded by noise and people
more profound than solitude sometimes?
Degrees of each define the moment.
.................................................................

fascinating, yes
the endless chatter of lives
rolling off my skin

click clack clank they crash
glasses and voices in air
clarity is lost

surrounded by noise
I wish I could record this
lives balanced in air

ah, reality
always there still and waiting
takes me by surprise

age doesn't matter
i know my face looks like that
hoping for a dream

and when does it stop?
this search for ourselves outside
look inside my room

to conclude this night
to have everything and naught
what more do I need?
................................................
self serving, self indulgent
it is all that and more

clear as hope
no greys
see me
I am

here
now

............................................
I endlessly laugh at myself.
And enjoy the ride...

racing with the stars
blood sears, veins incandescent
cool waves of the night

all order is lost
the light is reckless today
flashing off my skin

there is a fire
burning deeply inside you
I see your stillness

skittering away
a gaze slips past my shoulder
sound of doors closing

here I am again
catching words as they slip by
air thick as honey

falling easily
I trip on expectations
crashing to the ground

...............................................
passing observations, thoughts
that I find very hard to catch lately
there are holes in my net I suppose
and I am left with glimpses
of their receding backs
as they race away...
pulled into the
slipstream

to be still, thoughts leap
and expand between the stars
found quiet inside

Happy Birthday Mom

I miss you

I am vibrating
endless possibilities
to be so many 

....................................

words come together
there is an audible click
oh! to be aware!

across the divide
of two lives ever changing
I smile with you
.........................................
never forget that

the sky cracked open
and I poured down from the sky
filling green oceans

And that is what happens!
Here they are unmolested by my phone.
...........................................................
I dance with the bats
darting diving through shadows
thoughts flash in moonlight
.......................................................
always searching for
that brief moment of connect
eyes deeper than words
......................................................
lives murmur softly
filling the air around me
warm against my skin

I dance with the bats darting diving through shadows thoughts flash in moonlight ........................................,.....,,,, always searching for that brief moment of connect eyes deeper than words ........................................,.....,,,, lives murmur softly filling the air around me warm against my skin ........................................,.....,,,,..... technology....I wrote and posted these in a bistro while sipping an amazing barber d'asti while waiting on a friend love it

so tired my love
breath deepens with the twilight
slowing to my heart
...................................................
I really have no idea
where they are coming from lately
thoughts manifest words

pulled from still
quiet places

learning

I know who I am
my bones dissolve in water
lips caress the sun

pulled into your eyes
I slide beneath the surface
dark depths, bright flashes

look up at the stars
and rub fear from your eyes
mirrors on velvet

the blue deepens to
a long light this evening
words and thoughts stretched

the people I meet
weave in and out of my life
golden threads of light

pages torn from me
millions of scattered pieces
constellations rise

....................................................

within this deep night
the full moon swirls with voices
not one of them mine

flashing and diving
through blue clouds and galaxies
unchained untethered

I can hear the breath
of every stone as they dream
fade into the sky

I do not have words
the space to fill is too vast
alone in a crowd

riding the night tides
I find myself washed ashore
foam on the wet sand

quiet, so quiet
nowhere to hide in silence
leaving doors open

sliver
yes, to be aware
of the breeze across my skin
brilliant yellow wings

waves
I become the sea
in a rising tide of sound
lightly brush your shore
...........................................

Glass: Violin Concerto - Mvt. 2, Takuo Yuasa: Ulster Orchestra

why
dropped into silence
who do I write these words for?
they are part of me

not specific
as I watch you run
always to where you are not
live for distractions

...........................................
I struggled with this one
too much to convey
in so few words

I feel we don't find
ourselves in new places
they just open doors
to places already there

bats
twisting and diving
to dance with a gold washed sky
twilight laughs gently

just
below the surface
simmering blues burn through me
desire in check

I find that...

sometimes
the weight of friendship
falls on me so heavily
I can hardly breathe

twin
in space between worlds
we are thought concentrated
effervescent light

flash
do we ever stop
looking for our reflection
every strangers eyes

awash
breathing in the blues
while I am grounded with green
sky drips from my hair

passing
right now words seem deep
like the sake in my glass
clear as the full moon
...........................................
I know the difference
sometimes each is needed
to be aware
even as the
awareness
is taken
away?
yes

pulled....

tides
inside I feel it
without looking at the sky
impending full moon

hunt
no words caught tonight
they skitter out of my reach
leaving just these few

stripped
pinned by those dark eyes
your life sears up through the depths
my skin burns away